Life Journey

Everyone in life, wrote their own path and draw their own life. Like wise, me too.

There are plentiful of cross junction in one life, and it is a matter of fact that when you are going to cross that junction; be it successfully or with great obstacles. Successfully in the sense of smooth journey.

No one would say out loud that they had crossed all the junctions smoothly, and me too.

When you've reached one particular cross junction the decision lies on you, whether to advance forward or to turn either left or right. At the end of the day, you couldn't blame anyone because it is your choice. Alright, that is what many people have told many decision makers, and I'm one of them who are being told, vice visa.

Today in life, I've crossed a couple of junctions. It's nothing compared to others but it is something compare to someone. Remember that, everyone life is different. Mine is different from yours, and yours is different from mine. This is life, and life is unfair.

I wish I could proudly and loudly tell/shout at myself, telling me that yes! You've made the right choice. Go for it. However, at certain point in time, I really don't know if the path I've taken is the right one or not.

Sigh.

Too many things had happened, so much so that I've refused to think about any of it. Yes, I'm trying to escape and I don't know how long I could take it. I have been brave in the past months. Trying to be brave..

To H: I really don't know if I've made the right choice. Is it wrong? Right from the beginning?

Picking up your call was really demoralizing. I'm really sorry. Really really sorry. I don't know what I could do to make you feel better. I'm not trying to leave, not trying to escape, I just need to get my things done..

Unforcefully, I felt the wetness around my cornea. I'm trying to control, I'm trying to hold back. I was too afraid to pick up any of your calls because I'm really scare. I know I won't feel good after picking up. I know I won't.

Hence, I'm really sorry. Really really sorry.
Please forgive me.

Yours sincerely,
Your doted Shuang..