SHUANG'S POLITICALLY RIGHT AND WRONG

Fake!

2011-09-12T01:21:00.001+08:00

I'm having sleepless night everyday, entering my dreams at 2-3am sometimes 4am even though I have turned in at 12am.

Something is really wrong.

A lots of things are running in my mind even now.

Many a times, I just want to scream out loud but I couldn't.

I would very much want to fly away and get a new life in other lands, but I'm being tied down with....school. If only I'm graduating today, I would just fly next month with any offers I could get. Like seriously!

I just need a bit more to reach my ultimate breakdown point, and it is really very sick to pretend to be strong everytime, everyday! The fake smile, the fake mask, even the fake me!

It's even more sick to hide in 178 and breakdown!

I want a new life! Literally a new life. Hit me hard and erase all my memories for my new life please. However, I would want my precious memories from the TANs to be archive in my brainy.

Life is unfair and we choose our life paths, if, if only I could hit the reset button, everything would be back to normal and I won't be feeling like shit.

Seriously, everything is wrong! All wrong and just WRONG!

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Not a stupid but a fool..

2011-06-27T17:13:00.003+08:00

It has been a long long time since I've last logged in.

Well, indeed, there's many things running around me, so much so that I'm trying to keep it up. I've found myself flaring up easily recently and I get pissed over what he does. I seriously don't know what's went wrong, but I know I'm just freaking pissed! I'm trying to control myself, but the monster within myself refused to be ledge!

Things have changed. Literally changed. We are not the same anymore and whatever I've faced previously is being face by him currently. Its a way torturing!! I'm no longer that stupid; keeping quiet at one side waiting for things to happen. In fact, I go way out to look for my happiness! I might be evil but I have gone through what he has been going through now.
Getting no where, getting clueless and getting no answers!

Alright.

Anyway, I have been a fool waiting till 1:30am for nothing.
Seriously a fool!
Why on earth all these are happening?
WHY!!!!!

Cheers
Shuang

2011-03-23T01:57:00.003+08:00

Hello!

I had a wonderful weekends and I'm looking for more!
18 March marked both hui and my ORD.

And 18 March marked our calender titled: The fun has begin...

I'll blog regularly if I could. Otherwise FB can tell many things.

Got our passport stamped on the 18 of March and we had our first meal at the very nice mee rebus eatery. Checked into the hotel and I glad that we had the room with SG reception again. Bathed and slack before meeting Bean at our regular "Lok Lok". I'm in love with the "Lok Lok" because of the very spicy chili as well as the cheese hotdog.

By the way, I've bought my DVD player along for some DVD session during the stay. Hence, we had bought a few pieces of DVD and if I'm not wrong, it totalled up to about 10 pieces! Because 10 pieces free one piece! :)

Done with our "Lok Lok" and headed back to hotel for our lovely night.

Woke up on a fine Saturday morning and patronized the nice Mee Rebus again.
It was a happening Saturday because we had slept till 11am plus and shouted:
"他妈的爽啊！"

It's really good.
Went back to SG to run some errand and had our Koi before we will back there again for our Mani at 4:30pm!

I had my manicure
I had my auntie annie
I had my kim gary
and I had my DVD sessions in the room as well.

Last but not least?
We had "Lok Lok" at 1am going 2am, and take away some, together with 20$ of tidbits and carbonated drinks!

Sunday was great either..
Went out again for leisure and had a nice lunch before heading back to hotel for DVDs again.
Oh ya!
This time round, we had spent 70$ on tidbits and 55$ on chocolates..
-________________________-"

And we DVDs and ate all the way from 5pm to midnight!
AND AGAIN?
We had take away supper again!
Damn!
This is shiokness can?
"Lok Lok" + Mee Goreng + Bee Hoon Goreng!
The combo was wonderful!

Came Monday and we had set off early for training leaving them sleeping away in their hotel rooms. It was a nice one especially with the kitchen showroom, and I'm indeed very in love with the design as well as the concept! :)

Done with the training and we had loitered in their Giant before we left with a creeps each on our hands..

Back to hotel, and we had slacked all the way till the night again.
And guess what?
ITS TAKE AWAY AGAIN!
Now, we have the ultimate combo of
Mee Goreng + Bee Hong Goreng + Fried Rice + Kai Lan + 5 coconuts + 干香CRABS!!!

The crabs were so nice that its finger licking good!
We were practically enjoying the crabs in bed together with TV and coconuts and SG Reception!
他妈的！
there goes the 170$ but we are loving it!

Came Tuesday and we finally checked out with Heslyn delivered KOI to me and had our dinner at the Thai Restaurant again.

I'm really love myself and what I'm doing currently.
Sometimes, we need to scarify somethings in order to achieve the sense of happiness as well as freedom.

I've let go of my able-to-sign-up-for-CC salary for something we will be embarking on.
I've ignored all the persuasion to stay including the biggest.

You know.
I'm really that happy on the 18th after more than 4 to 5 months!
'The feeling is no one can understand and no one can ever express out in words.
I'll definitely miss whomever deserve and I meant what I said excluding the snake.

No matter what, I will not return even if I'm given an attractive package.
You know what?
Because
My Surname Tan
And I'm SHUANG SHUANG!

:)

three cheers to TAN!

Cheers
Shuang

Encouragement

2011-02-15T12:09:00.001+08:00

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

Valentines your head!

2011-02-14T20:22:00.001+08:00

Fcuk Valentines!
Fcuk Valentines!
Fcuk Valentines!

I hate promises that are meant to be broken and I fcuking hated those who made those empty promises!

One is enough but there are two, three, four and five!

Fcuk you and get lost!
Damn it!

And I hate flowers!
Who wants it?

Waste of money and not practical at all.
Idiot!

Of independence

2011-02-14T08:07:00.000+08:00

I’m experiencing one of the worst situations I ever had currently. The frustration I received every morning is torturing, and the feeling of being stuck at a place (which I want to leave ASAP) is killing me! Hence, at times, I really which that I could escape to some place or rather hide myself away to prevent myself from all this frustration and torturing (which I termed them as). It is really that bad to force yourself to do something which you don’t freaking like it at all! Just like a bird being trapped in the cage with all her freedom lost…

Hes is right! Once you have lost the interest or self motivation, nothing aids in keeping you. We have lost the fighting spirits we once had. For this fighting spirits which we once had for you, we know that it does not worth a single penny at all. Which is why, I wanted to leave. It is pointless to stay you see, really pointless. I have made the wrong choice in staying a month back, and I wouldn’t want to make the wrong choice again.

Being a Taurus, I am stubborn at times or rather at all times. Granny has laid out all the pros in staying but I simply ignore it. Pardon me because she does not know what’s going on exactly. I just want to leave ASAP, better still with immediate effect!

They have been telling me to leave! Why not leave ASAP? However, I wouldn’t blame them because they do not know the story behind. Yes! Much as I would like to heed your advice and rather take up your advice, I know I couldn’t. There are many things to consider about.

Anyway, my damn exam is coming up in 9 (5) days time. This is like so freaking fast for my last exam was just over on the 12 Dec! Sigh! I need a better time management when I finally leave. I would want my first exam’s grade rather than my second’s.

Whatever shit it is, I want to leave by the end of Feb, no more march!

Thereafter, let me rest for a couple of weeks before I start slogging my life away again.

I do miss the carefree days that we once had. Though there’s no memories captured, but the real life images will be stored in my hard disk forever. All the last minutes bring us joy, which made us paid the irresponsible price. Thanks you peeps for all the fun we had. I really enjoy it and I’m looking forward to one soon! Perhaps next Chinese New Year? HAHA!

Verge

2011-01-31T14:14:00.001+08:00

Can I disappear for a period of time? I just wish I could. I know I'm escaping but there's simply too many things to vex upon. I know It's selfish of me! Give me a break from everything please! I feel so lost.

I see no route nor a glimpse of light infront of me. And I know they needed me in any ways that's possible. However, I could neither render any help for each side. I just feel that I'm useless. The world is unfair! Really unfair!

Everything just back to square one once I started to vex on those things. Can I halt my studies? Can I leave? I'm just a walking zombie..!

Humans are scary, real scary!
Fcuk Fcuk Fcuk!

双双新的一年。

2011-01-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

Hi friends,

Happy new year 2011.
I had an eventful 2010 with many unexpected things happened.
It might not be a great year for me and I hope for a better 2011.

The only thing I have in mind is, how I wish 2012 is right here at the moment.

Much as I would like to keep this blog of mine active, I'm just lazy and I wouldn't want to share much of my life nowadays.

Alright, I just hope for a more happier 2011.

我要开心
因为我会开心的
我会熬过
因为我也要有幸福！

I just wish to take a break from everything.
No more walking zombies!

Cheers
Shuang

Time flies

2010-12-08T19:37:00.002+08:00

It's almost a month since my last post. I'm really have been neglecting this blog of mine! :( sorry readers!

Anyway, I've blackout again some where in October, and refused to admit because it's simply a waste of time and resources.

Then, came November where I have been trying to fight all my reluctance in order to chase after my interest/motivation.

However, things have been hindering again and again that I've decided to let go. Sometimes, I did wonder if everything is worth the effort? Why am I making myself so miserable and low self-confidence?

I've finally decided and there go my decision. Ironically, I'm very drawn back by emotion and I'm still stuck there. Would there be one day whereby I would heartlessly dump everything behind?

I'm giving them and myself a chance. When Monday comes, either I would heart it or hate it. If it works that way, it would always be and would never change. Simply because, they refuses to adapt to changes but stuck to their well, creating troubles.

Cheers
Shuang

My Boyfriend

2010-11-14T00:19:00.003+08:00

Love; it can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life. Yet why are we always taking the risk, and even plunge further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow? Maybe that's the power of love: I'll be contended, even with 2 hrs of tears alone, just for that 1 second of kiss with you.

When you fall in love, you get controlled by your emotions. You'll do the silliest and stupidest thing. You follow what your emotions tell you to do. Your emotions are controlled by the person you love deeply, and your lover's emotions are controlled by you. Basically, when you're in love, you only laugh because he laughs, or you only cry because she cries. Emotions are no longer controlled by humans, but by the love shared. The power of love: so strong that you wonder hopelessly what had happened to you.

I like it so much that I've spent just less than a day finish reading it. Alright, partly because it's just a novel only. Believe it or not, I should be reading textbook instead but I've found reading the novel then.

Sigh.

Next week gonna be a pack week because I have programs almost everyday!
Mon - School
Tues - Dinner with ex
Wed - Public Holiday!
Thurs - School
Fri - TGIF!
Sat - SLEEP!

:)

I had a chat with C and it's always nice. Its just so naturally that I'll pour out everything to C and I don't hold back any at all.

I need to take a break before coming back again.

I like school yet I hate reading textbooks!
I do seriously understand the lessons and I'm interested in attending the lessons, because I love real life examples! However, a lot of reading has to be done! Really a lot. So much so that often enough, I've found him staring at me instead of me reading him. I have been dating with TB everyday yet I still don't understand him at all. Sigh..

Alright, enough said.
I hope, I hope, I just hope that I'll survive...

:)

Cheers
Shuang

2010-11-02T23:47:00.001+08:00

I am just so fcuking tired that I don't know what to do....

And I buy without thinking as well.

I'm literally facing a deficit now.

-____-"

Overpouring

2010-10-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

23 Oct is coming soon and the stress is really here. So much so that most of the time, I ain't know what I'm doing but literally dazing away. Too many things are running in my harddisk that I don't know which to process first and which comes last. Everything just went haywires when the clock was tickling away. And I'm leading a day after a day. No aims, no motivations, no nothing...

Unhealthy! Really unhealthy!
I ain't feeling good recently and numerous factors added to it.
Sigh...

I have been waking up in the middle of night since months ago and recently was worst. I'm really turning into a zombie soon. Is that a sign of my cup overpouring soon? I don't know. Really don't know. I have been sleeping away for the past 2 days and didn't really touches on my notes and book. Am I that tired? I just yearn for more hours of sleep I think.

I love attending classes because it just make me feel great. Nope, it's not because there are hunkies or beauties, but because I've managed to find my 满足感 from there. I must admit that I don't have the feel everytime, but at least most of the time. 5 out of 8 classes? I feel great when I'm able to solve the tedious question. I feel great when all my doubtness and unclear were solved. I feel great when I'm able to follow the class as per normal. And I feel great knowing that at least I have something for me to feel great upon. HA!

I think I sounded quite depress from here. Give me sometime and I'll try to tune myself back. Like I've said, too many things happened that often enough, my harddisk is packed with datas and information that I've choose to ignore them literally.

To form a formula:
Many things running in harddisk = ignore them and 走一天过一天..

Today marked my 10/8 classes and I proudly announced that I've attended all my 8 QMM's tutorials with 2 extra because I've crashes Class A. No more tutorials for QMM which tells me that exam is coming real soon! A full 90% purely on exam...

Goodluck to me and I hope that I won't have to attend QMM classes again!
PLEASE!

Cheers
Shuang

Stupid Love..

2010-10-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

爱情它是种什么东西让人欢喜叫人伤心。有些人别拿它当作游戏，一但迷失无法抗拒。它的世界让人无法看清爱的是你痛的仍然是你，还有谁又甘心为了这种爱情再痛一次？谁是那个傻傻心甘情愿的人，恨我就是？爱你爱得心好累你让我疲惫为你我快要崩溃你让我伤悲。为了你我宁愿再爱一回享受这愚爱的滋味。爱你爱得心好累你让我疲惫为你学会去面对我不曾后退，为了你我宁愿再爱一回享受这愚爱的滋味！

Life Journey

2010-10-06T19:00:00.002+08:00

Everyone in life, wrote their own path and draw their own life. Like wise, me too.

There are plentiful of cross junction in one life, and it is a matter of fact that when you are going to cross that junction; be it successfully or with great obstacles. Successfully in the sense of smooth journey.

No one would say out loud that they had crossed all the junctions smoothly, and me too.

When you've reached one particular cross junction the decision lies on you, whether to advance forward or to turn either left or right. At the end of the day, you couldn't blame anyone because it is your choice. Alright, that is what many people have told many decision makers, and I'm one of them who are being told, vice visa.

Today in life, I've crossed a couple of junctions. It's nothing compared to others but it is something compare to someone. Remember that, everyone life is different. Mine is different from yours, and yours is different from mine. This is life, and life is unfair.

I wish I could proudly and loudly tell/shout at myself, telling me that yes! You've made the right choice. Go for it. However, at certain point in time, I really don't know if the path I've taken is the right one or not.

Sigh.

Too many things had happened, so much so that I've refused to think about any of it. Yes, I'm trying to escape and I don't know how long I could take it. I have been brave in the past months. Trying to be brave..

To H: I really don't know if I've made the right choice. Is it wrong? Right from the beginning?

Picking up your call was really demoralizing. I'm really sorry. Really really sorry. I don't know what I could do to make you feel better. I'm not trying to leave, not trying to escape, I just need to get my things done..

Unforcefully, I felt the wetness around my cornea. I'm trying to control, I'm trying to hold back. I was too afraid to pick up any of your calls because I'm really scare. I know I won't feel good after picking up. I know I won't.

Hence, I'm really sorry. Really really sorry.
Please forgive me.

Yours sincerely,
Your doted Shuang..

Loohcs

2010-09-18T02:44:00.001+08:00

School started. It's kinda hectic to handle both school and work especially when certain duties of 2 were handed over. Often, I find myself easily irritated this week.

Tired? Yes of course I am. The travelling journey itself can really kills. To be able to survive the journey, it depletes almost half of my remaining energy (from work). Through and fro takes up more than 2 hours or even 3... By the time I've reached, I'm equally pek chek or more pek chek than before..

How would I not turn to cabbing (yes, again!)

Not that I'm not trying to save, but really! Its just......Let's have a short debate alright?

I need to walk a 5 to 7 mins pathway out to bus stop from my office. Waited for another 5 - 8 mins for the bus. Bus journey to the MRT station took approximately 30 mins or even more (it's peak hour and the bus stop at almost every stops). Waited for the train which takes another 2 - 4 mins. Train to JE take about 15 to 20mins. Waited few mins for the east-west train. From JE to clementi take about 3 to 4 mins. Bus from station to lovely school takes 25 mins. It's 6 plus and that stretch of road is always pack...

From work to school itself takes more than 1.5 hours.

Ignore this, let's talk about journey home...

Got to wait for the damn 184 for more than 10mins or more because it's always pack. Reached cck after about 35 mins? Waited 3 - 5 mins for feeder bus. Journey back to home's bus stop takes about 20 mins. By the time I've walked myself home, I really tired and pek chek at why I'm torturing myself. Alright, it might not be a torturing for some, but I assure you, it is for me. I'm trying to survive for as long as I could. Really.

My brain juices are depleting everyday. So much so that I'm trying to squeeze some out during lectures but I couldn't!

Formulas look familiar yet a total stranger.
Y = MX + C
Exponential
Differentiation
Log
Set
Matrix
Functions
Linear

Why are all the formula looks like they are expanding into longer equations and unfamiliar everyday?

I feel like hiding in a corner and revise the whole textbook from page 1 to the last. After all, exam falls on 23 oct. When the date draws near, my head grows bigger. Can I finish everything?

Why don't you start off with theory and report first?
Why math?
Why calculation?

Stop waking up in the middle of the night because I'm really tired.

On the good side, I've survived 5 nights and it's a long day for both Sat and Sun....

P/S: Taxi uncles are my best friend lately.
P/S/S: Dollar notes is my enemy because they are running very far away from me.

I'm stess of my current module now.

Cheers
Shuang

Decision again

2010-09-12T17:33:00.001+08:00

Classes starting tomorrow with lots of mixed feelings. Have I make the right choice? Did I choose the right thing? Am I able to survive? These questions keep floating in my mind. So much so that I really don't know if I'm right...

After what D had told me, I've started to worry. Worry if I really could... Like what I have told D, AI ZAI! D told me I can and I hope I could

I have always been looking forward to this day and when it really comes, I'm suffering mentally...

No matter what, I know I will complete the whole course at all expense.

I shall try and see..

Cheers
Shuang

Its me!

2010-08-31T22:49:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time....
I'm just dread of staring at the screen and blog a decent post.

Nothing much for me to elaborate though.
Everything voice down to privacy.

When I'm still a schooling kid, I could blog on everything upon the star. However, once I've stepped into this cruel society, I'm weary of whatever I've blogged. Its scary to know who's sitting infront of the screen reading it away.

Thus, I've got to be careful.

Life has been mundane since ages.
Nothing interesting and nothing for me to look forward to.
I know this is sad and unhealthy, but I can't do anything.

I need something which I'm happy doing it.

Holiday always passes every fast.
If only I could change holiday to weekday, I would be one of the happiest around, at least for the time being.

Well well well, my life gonna be hectic in 2 weeks time.
Much as I'm looking forward to, I do have the term called "Mixed Feeling" resolving around me.

How much more before my cup will be full?
I'm questioning myself......

Cheers

Pizza Hut

2010-08-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

I've found myself stupid enough to give pizza hut chances after chances! I had numerous bad experience with pizza hut's delivery service, be it pizza delivered with all the fillings stuck onto the covers, wrong delivery orders, missing orders and/or 9 out of 12 drumlets received!

Yes! That's exactly what we had experience from pizza hut just this year itself! Even as a Singaporean, I find it a waste of time in calling their hotline demand for an answer! It's just pointless to complain to their lousy delivery service, as well as call center!

Ordered my dinner from pizza hut today over the net. 2 large pizzas, 2 garlic breads and a bottle of pepsi. Mum had received the pizzas an hour later after I've placed my delivery order. As I was sleeping then, I ain't know that the pizzas had arrived until Athen had woke me up. Walked myself to the kitchen and I was pissed to learn that they had cocked up their delivery again!

Where are my GARLIC BREADS?!

Called their call center only to know that all their lines were busy and i kept getting goodbye message.

Nevermind!

Called again few minutes later and an operator picked up! To my surprise, even before I've told him of my case, he knew about the garlic bread and assured me that they will deliver again with an apology!

Alright fine!
At least it's better. However, another hour had passed and I have yet see my garlic bread. Then i've tried calling their call center again, only to have my call get through after more than 10 tries!

Told the operator of my case and she told me that she would get the respective outlet to return call. Ok. Fine. Thanks enough.

So I've waited and waited for another hour with no single soul from pizza hut call me. Please tell me if you're pissed if you're in my shoe? I had freaking waited for more than 3 hours just for a stupid garlic bread!!

Called the call center for the third time and it was the worst! I've freaking spent 10 mins trying to call them using my mobile with goodbye messages every calls, to the extend that I've seated infront of my residential line for another 15 mins before a pathetic operator picked my call. Then I was angry enough that I've demanded to cancel my garlic bread order because I ain't want to wait for a dumb 3 hours just for their stupid garlic bread!

Trust me! This is what I've received from pizza hut who claims for quality product with the damn sticker which I've seen none on the 2 pizzas I've received!

I should have demand to cancel my whole order and have their dispatch to collect whatever they had delivered. Damn it!

I shall not buy from Pizza Hut again!!!

好田还是烂田

2010-07-29T07:55:00.000+08:00

当那个田烂了，无论你怎么施肥它还是一个烂田。
烂田始终还是烂田。

即使农夫想把那片田耕的健健康康，烂田还是会影响到好田。最终好田也会渐渐的放弃了生存的生命，一片漂亮的绿田也会渐渐的变成一片没用烂田。

只有斩草除根。。。
可是农夫会吗？

烂苹果还是烂苹果

July!

2010-07-19T08:01:00.002+08:00

It has been ages since I've last blogged again.
I know you have been wanting me to update you of my life. I apologised for the past week.

I had a wonderful weekend of the second week in July (4 to 11 July), and it ended off with affair in our secret place and, Spain vs Holland with Spain win but I've lose. Without fail, my weight would always increase when we have gathering, and I've ate a lot of PIZZAS!

Anyway, I finally had my Giant Squids and baked oysters after weeks. It taste as nice as before and it resemble the taste 4 months back. :) The only difference was, I have to leave early because of the midnight match. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the energy the next morning.

I know he's complaining for having me leaving early, but haha! I'm sorry because my phone kept ringings. There's always other days.

My 3rd week of July started with me not wanting to wake up, again... It has been the case for many days, many weeks and months.

Monday - Western
Tuesday - Chinese
Wednesday - Western
Thursday - Chinese
Friday - Chinese

He had complaint that we have had too many Western. GOT MEH? You should know that Western is my top most choice alright?

Anyway, my week end off with a smile when Friday comes. :)
Well, who doesn't?
Had a gathering with them at Ah Tan's place and it's really enjoying. I do miss those days of working together, and I wouldn't have to divert my energy in creating a shield or protection for myself from them. I misses my "god father" and he had scolded me when I'm told him a big/small secret! I'll heed your advice with no worries ok? I know it's easy to turn bad in a day but hard to U-Turn in maybe 3 or 4 years? I'll meet up with you guys for breakfast soon! :D

Done with Friday and I've survived Saturday before entering RWS and slacked my whole weekend away.

Trust me, I've literally stayed in the hotel for the whole day, either lying in bed or walking from room to room. I felt stucked!

- There's nothing for me to shop except breadtalk.
- No more tickets to Universal Studio + its raining whole day
- I've saved the 100$ levy charges.
- Couldn't drive in to Sentosa because they only provide one complimentary parking....
- Didn't go to Sentosay because the thought of taking buses really put me off.

Anyway,

Something I wasn't please was, the reception had actually messed up. They could issued the same room number of 0573 to other occupants when we were actually holding a key to it. Luckily we were in the room when other occupants came, otherwise I wouldn't know what would happened when we were not.

What's worst? When we've brought this up, they could just simply push all the blame to, SYSTEM CRUSH! How nice of that?! Knowing that not only us suffered, some others suffered as well, but the hotel did nothing in compensating the occupants, but leaving the matter rest by keeping quiet and not updating us either.

Sigh...
This is our Singapore's RWS hotel.

Given a choice, I wouldn't want to stay in RWS again, unless everything is up and their service are better.

No doubt, their hotels are comfy..

Cheers
Shuang

Can I?

2010-07-05T02:18:00.001+08:00

Oh well, I couldn't sleep again...

Trust me, I will if I don't have such a wonderful bonding with them.
I know I couldn't though I would like to very much.

I just couldn't.

To all the brothers, I thank you very much!
We will see if there's ever this day.
Alright?

Unless, I'm not here and unless I'm heartless.

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Went for breakfast with them again!
Thanks!

I'm really in love with the duck noodles.

Bought:

10 You Tiaos
5 Butterfiles
10 Soya milks
5 coffees
1 century porridge
1 duck noodles

All was gone within minutes.
Our workshop really superb.

Wanted to go down and keep one piece of youtiao for Mong, but I'm too late...

Alright, I'll buy more youtiaos next time...

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GOAL GERMANY!
They are superb please!

Well, I'm at the 11th and I could hear the cheering and booing at 1st.
All cheerings for Argentina, but too bad!

Dragged my mattress to the living room to watch the match with Skinny Dad. It's really enjoying especially the first goal at the 7th minutes!

Both was equally happy when Argentina's goal was an offside one.
:D

Then, I was even happy when Germany had their second goal, but those at level one were super sad....

HAHA!

It's really enjoying watching matches with Skinny Dad!
We always had the same team in mind, but with dad, we are always opposite. Hence, please imagine, I couldn't jump for goal when my ideal team goals if I'm watching matches in bed with dad.

:D

Done with the match and much as I wanted to drive out for mutabak, I didn't because I was dead tired that I fell asleep 10 minutes after the match had end. Sleep overpowered Mutabak and nice cheesey pratas! Then when I've woke up, it's already 7am plus! :D Yes, I've literally sleep in the living room when deity looking after me..

Thanks. No wonder I had a goodnight sleep.
Undisturbed goodnight sleep with no midnight waking up!
So much so that I've missed the Spain's match.

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Goodnight and I'll see you tomorrow for movie!
:D

CWC!
I need a BF!
Please intro!

Cheers
Shuang

I won't give you antidote just like you, and I hope I won't ask for antidotes and you wouldn't either.
I'm that selfish!

XF!
You're GONE!

Pillars

2010-06-29T08:02:00.000+08:00

I'm wondering if I'm right, and I don't know how long I could survive..

I have been protecting my pillars, so much so that whichever weapons came destroying it, I'll be standing still trying to mend it. Nonetheless, the only question I have in mind is, how long can that pillar stand?

For as long as it can definitely, but will it be?
It's swaying currently....

I have been escaping to places that doesn't belong to me......

Cheers
Shuang

Thanks..

2010-06-20T16:48:00.002+08:00

Two is sweet.
Three is a crowd.
Four is fun!

Went for dinner together with live soccer screening at a Boutique Hotel near Tiong Bahru. Food and drink were seriously not nice at all but we love the cafe's ambiance. Milk Shake taste like water + milk. Fish and Chips had it strong fishy smell.

Done with dinner and we had both agreed to follow them wherever they go! True enough, we did! They had sped off, we followed suit. They turned, we followed. They stopped, we did as well. I don't know if all these were planned, but I just find it fun! It's really fun.....

On second thought, maybe it was...

After the whole saga, we had our fair share of Bak Kut Teh at don't know where and it's nice.

Of everything, I thank you for yesterday's Island Creamery!
Granny had finished almost half of the Pulau Hitam before giving it me. :(

I wish to stock some in Office but, mice exist at level 1 and my level 2 fridge is small.

Cheers
Shuang

3rd week of June

2010-06-16T07:48:00.002+08:00

My Indo boy is coming back soon.
I'm so gonna miss him.
Do you want to meet my Granny? I think she would love to...
To be CONFIRM alright?
:)

It's really a packed week and 2 down, 4 more to go!

Monday - As usual. We had dine in the same place, and I had ordered the same old Fish and Chips, Calamaris, Oyster and Wine.

Tuesday - I was so tired that I wanted to cab home. Nope I didn't, instead I've took the bus to the Train Station, and just nice D called! :D Its does feel really good to receive D call. I ain't know how to explain but I love the feel of having someone behind for me to lean upon when I'm all tired out from the battle. The feel is just like returning back to the comfort bird nest after a day long of hunting.. It's really good. Thanks. Hence, I've slogged in the car and alighted at my destination for dinner. I love the lalas by the way. They cooked nice lalas. :)

Wednesday - 端午节快了。 Have you eaten any Rice Dumpling yet? I had my share of vegetarian nonya last night. Tonight program hasn't come out yet. Anyone is free to date me if I'm not tired (but that's sound so impossible because I'm tired everyday!). Nonetheless, I think I'll be out for birthday dinner...... WHERE SHALL WE DINE IN?

Thursday - Initial plan: to have dinner with HCH. BUT, I had postponed it because I'm having my company dinner that day, informing me only on Monday.... -___-" Who, who, who and WHO?! I should plan for transport carefully... OH YES! Indo boy is coming back on 18 June!

Friday - Dinner with LHH, confirm plus chop! I'm sorry for postponing and postponing! Really! After which, if I'm still surviving, I'll head down to Cine to meet up with TYL, EM and TWK! If I'm still surviving alright?

Saturday - Work and work. Will have lunch if there is, otherwise, shall we go out my Indo Boy? :)

Sunday - Doctor appointment at 11:30am and I'm sorry to inform that the initial plan you wanted is gone! I couldn't give you my Sunday Morning already because apparently, I've forget about my Dr appt. :X Unless you want my Sunday Afternoon, 1pm till 5:30pm the most? I have an appt at 6:30pm...

See!
I've told you!
I'm really pretty pack.
So pack that I ain't know which to go!
Out of everyday, I know someone would be there whenever I needed a dinner.
Out of everyday, I know someone is waiting for me call and someone is waiting for me to pick up that call of mine.
Out of everyday, I'm always tired.
Out of everyday, I wish I could sleep as long as I could.
Out of everyday, I wish I am happy! Please don't pull my only friend away. Pleaseee....

I'm really confused and confused!
Everything is just so messy.
Which sweets should I take? Which pills should I avoid?
If I've taken the sweets, would I have diarrhea?
If I've taken the pills, would all troubles/problems gone?

WHICH ONE?

Needs a holiday soon!
Seriously looking forward to next Saturday whereby I could sleep like nobody business!

I'M OUT OF MY PROBATION PERIOD!
Am I?
:D :D :D

Cheers
Shuang

Come here please...

2010-06-13T19:32:00.003+08:00

How I wish Tuesday is right here at this very moment.....

Friend, I'm sorry for making you worried. I'm sorry for cancelling our Monday meeting and I'm sorry for not picking up your calls for days.

Reason being?
Shuang had turned in kind of early last week, with my tired eyes closed but brain wide awake..I have been sleeping late and waking up early lately. So much so that all tiredness were being collated together, and I've woke up late on Thursday morning..It is that bad, and I just don't feel like waking up..

The past whole week seems so packed that I could hardly breath..
But well, I'm willing to...
I heart Monday...
I've submitted my applications on Tuesday...
I heart Wednesday...
I love Thursday...
I missed Friday...
I sleep my Saturday away...
I eat and eat my whole Sunday...

Every cups have it's capacity, once it's full, it's fulled. A drop of water would cause overflowing. Hence, stop adding more water would you mind?

She enjoys that place which allows her to think of nothing at all.
She enjoys going there because its able to let her relax freely.
She enjoys joining them because they make her smile...
She knows she's in love but to be exact, she cannot...

I'm kinda fully booked next week...

Monday - Dinner
Tuesday - Dinner
Thursday - Dinner

Cheers
Shuang

What's all becoming?

2010-06-10T11:18:00.003+08:00

It's always feel good having buddies around. No doubt, I have one and he is always there. I ain't know why but it's a fact that I will tell him things that no one knows except me. It's just so automatically and hassle free. Really..

Alright, ultimately a third party would know but I recognized that he will be the first.

My friend, I know you're worried and I assured you that I know what i'm doing. This is just so not me and times I really don't know what i'm becoming. But hey, you do enjoy all the stories I've told you, isn't it? :)

Thank you for being for me there always and I'm sorry if I've let you worry...

Cheers
Shuang

So true...

2010-06-02T08:39:00.001+08:00

Cheers
Shuang

Am I myself?

2010-05-23T21:10:00.001+08:00

There are so many to voice out, but I couldn't. All I could do is to escape here and shout out loud......

Cheers
Shuang

Location:Singapore

True Friends

2010-05-16T23:44:00.010+08:00

Boss said: (not the exact wordings but the meaning is there,)

Well, at least I felt better after getting this from him. Alright fine, I have been ignoring and I wouldn't care much either. Nonetheless, these litle sentences sway me back on the right track. :)

He's truely a man of 大道理。

Few faces ran through my brain when I'm digesting these sentences, and I'm glad to have these people around whenever needed. Family and relatives aside because I know they would be there.

And True friends are like
CWC
Mr Q
Mr Z
Mr J
Miss LHH
Miss Vege is my true friend but she has been missing these pass few months.. :(

Happy for me please because,
These are the people who are there for me whenever needed.
When I'm down, some are just a call away.
When I'm having my insomnia, some offered to take me out.
When I'm having my moodiness, some gave in to me.
And there are much more than these.
I thank you people.

Then, apart from these, I'm really grateful and touched for the 2 postcards I've received!

Just so coincidence:
Both cards was from UK
Both cards was from my 2 close Indonesian friends.
And these 2 friends seriously took care of me very well when we were out together.
I just simply miss you guys!

To my friends, I really thank you guys.
And, I would like apologise if I ever landed u guys in any predicament because of my mistakes made. I'm sorry for throwing my 大小姐脾气 in the past, and I'm sorry for not having much time with you guys. Nonetheless, my numbers are always there and never change. You're genuinely welcome to dial my number whenever needed and I'll help you in any ways I could, just like how you guys had helped me.

:)

THANK YOU

Cheers
Shuang

Survivor

2010-05-16T11:40:00.002+08:00

The longest survivor wins...
Let's 加油 together alright? :)

Cheers
Shuang

Started

2010-05-14T11:31:00.001+08:00

Cheers
Shuang

Location:Senoko Dr,Sembawang,Singapore

Society

2010-05-12T11:08:00.002+08:00

人不可貌相，海水不可斗量。

往往没看到的东西不能确定是真的、也不可能是真的。

仔细想一想，我们所看到的东西也未必是真。

朋友说我带这一个没防人的心过日子。
可有好有坏，但我迟早会被杀了也不知到。

这社会太恐怖了。

Cheers
Shuang

Location:Sims Dr,Geylang,Singapore

Monotrain

2010-05-09T22:42:00.003+08:00

I'm loving my iPhone. Seriously love him. I've got whatever apps I wanted, which includes a SMS counter, individual phone call deleting, and this full version of blogging apps. Not forgetting my Expenses Tracking which I wouldn't need to record all my expenses using my itouch, but my iPhone! :)

I got to seriously thanks Uncle Nic!

Anyway, I have got lots and lots of things to share, to voice out. But some how, I couldn't! I used to pour everything to one. However, I've stopped doing so. Whenever I've tried and did it, I'll received unfavourable advises. I know that you do care about me, but deep inside you should know that I won't unless I really couldn't anymore.

Alright, fine. It's Monday again tomorrow and to be frank, I do hate Monday! Nonetheless, if Monday don't come, Friday won't come. Let's look forward to another Friday..

Nice right?
My customized layout.
Keke.
I have whatapps now!

Cheers
Shuang

This is L-I-F-E

2010-05-06T22:04:00.001+08:00

在生活上往往会遇到意想不到的事。不管如意或不如意都要学着去接受，并勇敢的往前走。

天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空方其身，行弗乱其所为，所以动心忍性，增益其所不能.

Thanks.
Cheers
Shuang

Present...

2010-05-04T23:58:00.003+08:00

Present from UK.

:D

This seriously makes me HUNGRY and craving for them!!

I'm really touch! Thanks for the thoughts. Really!!

By uploading this picture. Many people had asked if you were my boyfriend! Please step up and clarify!
HAHA!

Really thanks a lot.

THANKS!

P/S: Granny would be happy if I tell her you've sent me a present!!

Cheers
Shuang

Black out

2010-05-04T21:42:00.004+08:00

I've blackout-ed the Sunday before last again.

Well, I was lucky because I was at the manicurist home having my nails done when the irritating sensation came. Definitely not because I've smelled too much nail polish which causes the sensation. I have been changing colours every weeks and the smell are nothing to me, or at least to girls/women. Nonetheless, I have no idea what causes it either.

Granny was asking why didn't I sit down or squat down when I know I'm gonna collapse. Well, in fact, I was seated along with the sensation torturing me, so much so that I felt like vomitting. Which was why I've stopped the manicuring process, got up and walked myself to the toilet for happy vomitting. Then, in the process of walking to the toilet, I've collaspe like nobody business and laid flat on the floor. I was really lucky this time round because I'm not on the escalator and I didn't injure/hurt myself be it my lips or knee cap. :)

Literally laid flat for quite a while before I've stood up and walked myself back to the chair. Ya. That's what tall person suffers I think. -_____-"

Anyway, a week later, which was last Sunday, Granny asked if I wanted to go TCM and get my body fine tune a bit/reset to the original functions. As usual, I've rejected. Sometimes, I just feel that health may not be that important. Correct me if I'm wrong, which I know I'm DEFINITELY is... But.. Behind every action there's bound to be a but. And this particular BUT managed to put off my fine tuning thought.

Hence, because I've rejected visiting the TCM, Mum had brew some tonic and wanted me to finish them up. I really thanks her for the care and concern but I'm sorry for my looking after myself.

Sometimes, I really wonder upon what she had said:
"Why so big size, always faint."

-_____________________________________________-"

By:
One is my Granny, another is my Mum.
Dad gonna follow next, and Skinny dad gonna follow next after next.

=D

Cheers
Shuang

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2010-05-02T22:47:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND THANK YOU ALL FOR THE GREETINGS, WISHES, DINNERS AND PRESENTS! :)

Alright peeps, I'll try my utmost best to blog this entry as positive as possible.

Monday
Got a call from them telling me that they were going to Genting tonight. In another words, I'm literally home alone for the next few days because Miss H was away for Redang and Bro was on duty.
Hence, I've Magi-Mee at home.

Tuesday
I was praying that this week would pass as fast as possible.
Anyway, dinner with Fish & Chips and thank you.

Wednesday
Met up with LHH for dinner at Lot 1 in Sakae. Chatted a lot, shared a lot and we've ate a lot too. Thanks for the dinner. :)

Thursday
Dinner with them in JP and I do really love it.
Great jokes, great gathering and I love the warmth....

Friday
Much as I've wanted to, I didn't....Well, like I've always said, this is life....
I had lunch in Sizzlers and thank you very much. I've ate a lot by the way. :) keke. I shall patronize them again in the near future. :) After which, I really thanks Mr PT for coming back to office and drove me back home sweet home. It's just so coincidence that he was back to clear some errands.

Anyway I know I would survive, which I've did! Amidst all this, please pardon if you've feel offended. I know I wouldn't give a damn even if I know that you're pissed, but still it's best to be pardon than not. Like I've said earlier on, I'm really mastering the skill of ignoring lately, so much so that I'm kind of good at it now. Nevertheless, People were right, we shouldn't head on with others whom will affect us directly, and indirectly. I'm learning this skill and I hope I would succeed. Ironically, I'm just myself. I know I'm right and I wouldn't give in. Hence stop coming to me for redundant matter which seriously waste tons of my time. Thanks!

Then, dinner with cliques and I had Ip-Man 2 movie with family and cliques! It's really a nice movie and I love it. The story line just seriously grabbed our heart like what Part 1 did.

Home at 1am plus and I was out at 2am plus with them, back at 5am plus
Thanks peep and I do have a simple yet wonderful birthday this year.

:)

So yes. What's Mark X huh?
HAHA!

Enough said, I'll see if I've the energy on Monday.

Sunday
You've turned our weekly date away so easily. Of which, I think I could likewise. Thanks alright? Really thanks.
Hence, stop bombarding my phone because you know I wouldn't pick up.

Goodnight and I'm trying this Family Tracker Apps in my iPhone.
But.......
Mr Q! Faster install this Apps please!

HAHA!

Cheers
Shuang

I'm living well.

2010-04-26T01:03:00.005+08:00

Hi Peeps,

Thanks for visiting again alright?

Things are doing great over here and I'm taking a step by a step..
:)

It's FRIDAY and I'm loving it.
Had a ride from PT (Thanks!!) from office to Granny's place and I'm welcomed by Granny's home cooked food. This seriously perked me up because I haven't been eating dinner at her place for weeks. I do misses it occasionally.

Cabbed through and fro from work on Sat with Granny asking me why...
Alright, I have been explaining many times and I'm not going to explain any further.
:)

Drove to West Mall and took-away 7 foot long of subways for dinner, with us eating happily in the living room. :) I just love it this way. Baby had his share of 6 inches too.

After which, I've literally K.O. when the night came/sending them home sweet home.

Woke up at 9am, getting ready for Dim Sum @ Yum Cha in Chinatown. We then only found out that it's under renovation upon reaching there. Nonetheless, nothing spoil our moods for breakfast and we had drove to another destination, Yan Palace.

In conclusion, all of us preferred Yum Cha to Yan Palace because the Dim Sum being served were seriously not delicious. Well, I think Yan Palace will come last when we think of Dim Sum next.

Brought Ben & Jerry together with Haagen Daz, and I love lazing at home on a fine Sunday afternoon enjoying the ice creams... :D

Evening came and off we went to Sims Ave for my long wanted 搵到食! Thanks and I do really love Dim Sum. We had ordered so many that I'm too lazy to snap the photos of each and individual one. Receipt shall tell that 2 of us had simply ate to MUCH!

Our starter only.
-________-"

Done with dinner and off we went hunting for my Dayplus Bread!
Finally found them at that shop and I've simply grabbed 10 of them! :X

Breakfast and Lunch settled!
I LOVE TODAY/SUNDAY!

P/S: Likewise, I felt the same too. Sometimes, people are so naive that they often look at the small picture instead of the overall situation. I couldn't comment much over here, but what I could say was I'm thankful that if I'm the one, I would and definitely reacted accordingly. You thought that you've the right one but apparently it seems not. Haha. Afterall, I sincerely hope that with the right helper you would grow successfully. To end off, I'm really glad and proud to say that I would not and will not behave like what the others had! :D :D

P/S/S: This is life. What u've seen may not be the reality, and those u ain't know are actually the truth. It's all smokescreened..

Cheers
Shuang

BREAD

2010-04-21T22:55:00.004+08:00

Hi Peeps,

I'm hooked by this particular bread just like how I've hooked by the Ayam 'breast' Penyet selling at the nearby hawker centre from my workplace.

I have Ayam Penyet on last Thursday, Monday and today (Wednesday). And I have this bread since Monday till today, to the extend that I have been replenishing them whenever I've run out of any. Alrighty, let's just admit I'm a bread lover.

Thanks to Sunday where we had drove into this petrol kiosk out of the sudden, grabbed any breads that chance upon, and parted with my earnings leaving the kiosk with oh-I-have-bought-some-breads feelings.

When Monday came, and while I was munching on it, I felt so regretful for not buying more of them that night...

Of which, X came fetching me and we had drove into that particular petrol kiosk again, getting 2 Cheese and 1 Maple...

Well people, I'm kinda spoilt with many choices of flavor because they do have:
1) Cheese (ate)
2) Blueberry
3) Chocolate (ate)
4) Hokkaido Cream (ated)
5) Maple (ate)
6) Pumpkin
7) Red Bean (ate)
8) Melon<
9) Purple Potato (ate)

Imma gonna tried the rest of the flavor soon and fast (blueberry, pumpkin and melon).
I think there's caramel and I swear Imma gonna try that SOON, because I'm a caramel lover too.

As of today, someone u-turned and drove into another petrol kiosk and bought these for me.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
It's really more than enough to make me smile
(because of the breads lah.... -____-" :X)

MY BREAKFAST AND AFTERNOON TEABREAK SETTLED!

Alright.
Night peeps.

Cheers
Shuang

As days passed

2010-04-17T08:21:00.001+08:00

Monday - McDonald breakfast
Tuesday - Xing Wang with friend
Wednesday - Home
Thursday - Kitagawa with boss
Friday - April birthday's party with office

SATURDAY
Breakfasting with them.
Well, no matter what, I'll try breakfasting with them at least once or twice a month. Of which, I've cabbed there at 6:50am, reaching at 7am. I know I have been cabbing lately but....i'll try to hate taking train ok!

Anyway, as usual we had ordered the nice duck noodles, and I do really enjoy nice bonding with stories telling! :) Thanks heaps.

As of now, I'm actually inside some train training to my workplace. That's so unlike me, but no choice because I've no transportation tool with them heading to Johor Bahru now.

Alrightly people, I'll upload some photos if I have the time to.

See ya

Cheers
Shuang

Changes

2010-04-15T23:20:00.004+08:00

You used to be the one I'll turn to everyday; I'll share things with and I'll talk to. However, I think it's not currently.

Apparently, I'm getting to see the gap getting wider and wider day by day, and our thinking really differs at this very stage.

I don't know why but it seems like I'm starting to disagree with you.
From 1 disagreement out of 10, turned to 2, 3, 4, and 5 as day passes.

What's worst?
I hate it that you're not on my side yet persuading me in taking another path.
This is so wrong, very very wrong.

I don't know how long this would last, but ultimately, I think the life span is ending soon. I'm sorry, really really sorry.

I admit that I'm different as of previously partly because I've grown, but I'm still that girl with this strong character/attitude, believing in something people don't look up to.

Ok.
Enough said and enough argument.
We shall see when the time comes.
Whether you're right, or I'm right.

At least I'm trying very hard here, trying to content myself. I don't need someone there to dampen my beliefs, and that's what I hated most. All I need is someone staying quietly by my side, and cheer me up occasionally....
It's more than enough for me.

Alright?
Night peeps.
:)

Cheers
Shuang

Who will spend that day with me huh?

Literally

2010-04-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

就算是真的会永远单身双人床依旧睡得很安稳，也不想屈就于寂寞眼前找个人托付掉后半生。怎样把自己交给下个人用一种心甘情愿的口吻。时间狠狠向我提问敢不敢心再一次放任为了某个人等。我心里包覆的壳谁懂得只是一层保护色或许爱情离我太远了。快要记不得多久没用力哭了为什么把自己隔绝了！我心里包覆的壳谁晓得我并不习惯冰冷也想感受心跳的狂热。期待谁发现我看似完整人生还有个空白缺口。会是谁发现我看似完整人生还有个爱的缺口。

我也有个壳紧紧的把自己包覆在里头，过度的保护自己让自己也变的封闭。躲在里头太久却忘记应该怎么脱离这个保护壳。

Cheers
Shuang

Society

2010-04-14T01:33:00.001+08:00

Hi People!

I know it's late, but still I would like to finish whatever I have in mind before heading to bed.

Well, I don't know if I've did the right thing but I've did it.
I've said the harsh sentences, yet I've did a gentle move which led to people asking me why.

Ya why?
Why did I bother to do so when I didn't receive any good comments even after I've left? Let's not talk about the past because everyone knows that it's shit! Is everything worth it? I've received shit yet I'm giving the sender sweets.

And yes, they had swallowed my well-deserved silently without even fucking inform me at all! It's not something big, but at least I have the right to know the outcome, the status! I'm seriously ok if you don't intend to give me, or rather I could part with it without any issues if you freaking bother to call my mobile and tell me! I know you do have my contact!

I've been giving out calls lately, and today literally stunned me.
I were being told that I'm a topic of gossiping lately, by someone who have acted friendly. I guess my skill of ignoring is getting better day by day, but ultimately I still needed a space to rant.

I really couldn't change my style of nicknaming, but hey witch. Does any of my decision making affects you? Did I or did I not? Must you really go around bullshitting and bullshitting?

Frankly speaking, right after I've learnt about it. I did really ponder if I've did the right thing, so much so that I've asked others for opinions. Even your related one disagrees in me doing so!

Alright fine, afterall we need to be partial over here.

This is life and society is that realistic!
People ignores you when you're a chicken, but when you've turned into a newly grown eagle, they claims that you are their friends. HAHA! How ironically!

Likewise, I don't need friends with motives.
I don't need acquittance who wear masks.
I don't need you to be friendly when I'm a meat to fill your stomach capacity!

What I need is real simple.
True friends that are always there for you with no conditions at all.

And my bunch of friends, when are we going to have our holidays soon?
Universal Studio soon, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

:)

Maybe, I just don't have that wrong heart.

Cheers
Shuang

Thanks

2010-04-09T22:00:00.005+08:00

It does feel good to know that there are people whom are willing to stretch out their round hands whenever needed. Though it's not physically, but to have the thought of squeezing out some time is more than enough.
Thanks a lot.
:)

Anyway, I have been eating lately. So much so that I think I should stop, especially when 8pm comes.

Monday - Dinner at home
Tuesday - Miss Clarity
Wednesday - New York New York
Thursday - Pasta Fresca
Friday - Dinner at home

And if I were to go into details, I've ate a lot for both Tuesday and Thursday.
-_____-"
It's really a way of relaxing for me, and I seriously got to admit it.

Thanks people.
As of now, Imma gonna start on things that should be done.
:D

Cheers
Shuang

You?

2010-04-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

Although life has been hectic, at least I know I've made a right choice. It might seems wrong, but ultimately I'll definitely win you! And hey, when that day comes, you wouldn't be the one sitting there smiling away like what you did currently.

You think you were great?
Come on! How sure are you?
At least I'm sure that mine's better than yours.

I'm kind of pissed off when I've learnt about it, but well, I'm mastering the skill of ignoring lately and I'm doing great over here. Haha..

I had a great dinner with them today. Thanks! Really thanks.
It has been ages since I've laughed so heartily like before. HAHA!
It has been ages since I've laid my hands on him.
It has been ages since we last gathered.
Keke.
I do miss our occasionally dinner previously though.

OK FINE!
We shall look forward.

I'm waiting for that day to come whereby I'm be the last one standing, laughing at you.

:)

Cheers
Shuang

My Dowager

2010-03-31T00:02:00.003+08:00

Apparently, she has been getting calls from me recently. To the extend that she's actually giggling on the other side.

One day itself, I've called and...

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

A monotonous one turned into a lecturing.....
Alright, fine! She's not lecturing me, just her same old Dowager's speech.

Another day again....

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

I didn't actually sob over the phone alright!

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

She really turns every fast lor.

One more day....

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

Me:

Dowager:

I really miss her!

Oh ya. Months ago, when I'm still there.

Dowager:

pointing to my nail polish top coat

Me:

continue painting my nails

Dowager:

Me:

stared at her

Both:

Dowager:

cong ti

disturb

cong ti

Partly one of the reason why I misses everything so much....

Cheers
Shuang

Foods are remedies

2010-03-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, I would very much like to thank her for train-ing all the way to EW9 to meet me, and accompanied me throughout my whole Saturday afternoon.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

Waraku!

Followed by MOF

Like what Miss Hes had said, "At least I know they are still there for me"!

I don't normally text/date people out, but once I did, it's really out of the norm. Even if I did, they are selected fews. I'm glad that there're always someone there for companion whenever needed. And to you, Miss Girl, I bet you must be surprised that I'm actually willing to slack outside of my comfy home on a Saturday afternoon!

Other than this, I've did something out of the norm by waking up at 6am, got myself ready for breakfast with them at 7am, and chitchatted with the rest till 8:30am before I've set off for work at 9am!

It was like, I've woke up 2 hours earlier for this out-of-my-usual-self behavior. I guess I'm just in need of this..

On the other hand, I'm really really grateful to have XF whenever needed. Be it hears me out or let me wails. You always manage to read my mind without fail. Is it that easy to read huh? :D Nonetheless, why do you still complain that you couldn't figure out what I'm thinking at time? Totally contradicts. Whatever it is, I'm craving for delicious delicacies!

Lala Bee Hoon / Steamboat-ing this Wednesday!
^^

Well people, I don't need a 24/7 friend. All I need is someone being there whenever needed, but I would like to apologise if ever a day you felt being pestered by me. I sincerely apologise!
SORRY!

All I need is to take a break and do something out of the norm. That's what I want, let just phrase it this way! :)

To my PT BF!
You've officially announced MIA! WHERE ARE YOU!

To my Granny, I guess you've sensed something over the weekend, I did try but I still failed. Give me some more time ok? I really enjoys staying over at your place, seriously! keke..

Oh well people, please pray that the number I've longed wanted it to top first come out ASAP! This might spark my happiness. Keke.

P/S: I'm training not to be a lazy dowager's princess..

Cheers
Shuang

Fang Lao Da

2010-03-25T22:57:00.002+08:00

The answer behind, yes I know!
Thanks.
I promised I'll try to walk out of it together with your help!

Cheers
Shuang

Of deleted posts

2010-03-25T22:51:00.003+08:00

Hi Peeps,

I've cleared all my 1489 posts leaving some behind. Simply because? I couldn't tolerate stalkers!
Stop searching for Tan Shuang Shuang alright?!

:)

Ok fine. Partly because I wanted to keep my childish youth away from others. Much as I would like to keep it, I've decided to click on the delete icon instead.

Shall I start all over again? Clearing all the post as of 18 March?

However, some are just so meaningful to me that I ain't bear to part with them.

I SHOULD BE HEARTLESS!

Cheers
Shuang

Comfortability

2010-03-25T22:29:00.001+08:00

没那么简单就能找到聊得来的伴,尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛。总是不安只好强悍，谁谋杀了我的浪漫？没那么简单就能去爱别的全不看,变得实际也许好也许坏各一半。不爱孤单一久也习惯，不用担心谁也不用被谁管！

感觉快乐就忙东忙西，感觉累了就放空自己！别人说的话随便听一听，自己作决定。不想拥有太多情绪，一杯红酒配电影。在周末晚上关上了手机，舒服窝在沙发里。相爱没有那么容易每个人有他的脾气！过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静。幸福没有那么容易才会特别让人着迷。什么都不懂的年纪，曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经。

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆。。。

Cheers
Shuang

Misses

2010-03-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hi people,

I have slacking over the past few days. It's really torturing because I'm practically too free. That was not my norm with each day passes like a year. It is that bad!!

Slacked at home on Thursay morning after a night of partyworld with WBBB. Went out in the afternoon, followed by dinner in Kim Gary with them. :) thanks for it really kills my boredom. Then, my thursday night end with suppering at Timah with cliques.

Went for a relaxing dinner with them on Friday and I seriously thank them, especially him for wasting so much of his time.

Breakfast-ing with them at 7am on Saturday. After which, drove her to town in the evening.

As for Sunday, went for birthday lunch followed by gathering at Teban. Lastly, some wine at Sixth Ave with tons of foods. I can really eat at the right time, right feelings.

Pasta
Garlic breads with melted cheese
Big lalas
Ngor hion
Salted egg prawns
Toast bread x 2

Bed at 1am and I've woke up at 9 plus on Monday morning. Got myself prepared and I've set off to Bugis for something constructive for myself. :) By the way, i had a very filling lunch at Benten with tons of foods again..

Baked rice and pasta respectively
Baked cheese salmon
Fried ebi
Ice cream parfait respectively

-________-"

Great lunch followed by painful bloodtest and home sweet home.

Basically, that's how I've spent my free days before I lose my freedom again.

People. It marked my day today!

Cheers
Shuang

Clarity

2010-03-20T10:58:00.002+08:00

Hello

2010-03-18T22:55:00.002+08:00

It's rather annoying knowing that people are stalking. I know this is what every blogger would face, but still it's really distubing knowing that they aren't really welcome.

Much as I would like to lock it, it's unfair to my readers.

Ok lah. I'm not gonna broad over things that had happened.
I should and shall pack up everything.

Thanks.

Cheers
Shuang

Closure

2010-03-17T17:22:00.004+08:00

MR A!

It marked my last day today! Somehow, I wish you were online so that we could Skype. I have so many things to tell you!

Bid farewell to them and off I go at 4pm!
I ain't know why, but somehow it just came out forcefully. :(

XF was trying to humour me throughout the journey but Hee's phone call made everything worst. TMD!

I'm not going anywhere next week, because I would want to start ASAP!

WBBB is going Genting next week.
Gran is going Genting next week.
But I'm not going with them.

There's always other time.

Alright people, I'll pack up and move on for new challenges.
We shall meet when we meet.

Bye AT
Bye WS
Bye HH
Bye DO
Bye Jas Y
Bye HY
Bye Darling
Bye Ah Hee
Bye HJW
Bye Ah Qu
Bye BDX
Bye Ah Ann
Bye EC

Bye people!!!

Lastly, BYE DA BAO, Johnny and Xiao Bao!

I know you're reading, but read at your own risk. :D

Cheers
Shuang

Leaving the comfort zone

2010-03-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

It has been more than 10 days since I've last blogged.
I'm sorry, especially to Mr A who has been reading this to know what's happening within/around me.

I've QUIT!

Finally, I've decided to leave the comfort zone for something I feel that it would be worth for all my time and effort. At least, I'll feel better knowing that my effort will be pay off unlike currently. I know I will miss my comfort zone, not because of the place but because of some of the lovely people there. Yes, I'll definitely miss you guys and I am even now. :(

People, I've threw that lovely letter last week and I'm leaving this week. This is a plus for sales line I think, which definitely makes me happy but sad. Happy because I could leave finally, sad because I'm leaving them (colleagues) soon.

Last week itself, I'm in a serious dilemma deciding my life journey.
I'm given 2 choices with both totally different from one another, bringing/giving me different aspects for my life in the future. In the end, I'm chosen for something which not many people would.

Tons and tons of people had advised me to go for the latter, but I've insisted on the formal. Like what F had said, I'm someone who'll go for things that will prove others wrong. And like what AT had said, all I need is assurance. As long as 3 out of 100 person advised on the formal, I'll ignore the 97 latter..

Whatever it is, I thanks those who had given me advices and hears me out when needed.

To you, I know we will cross each other path in the future. However, I wouldn't know if I'm able to react rationally when it ever comes.

As of now, I'll just cross the bridge when I come to it.

Cheers
Shuang

One of Saturday Night

2010-03-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

Drove dad and mum back home from Granny's place. After which, went to CWC's place, wanting to jailbreak my iPhone..

Me: I'm going over in 15 to 20 mins.. Going home first then go over.

CWC: okok take ur time.. Reaching already let me know.

Dropped dad and mum off and i msn-ed him.

Me: I'm on my way there already...

CWC: where are u??

Me: my house lor...

CWC: you got many house leh!

Hahahahahahahahahaaaaaa

this instantly made me laugh while driving..

:)

Cheers
Shuang

I want to jump high and high

2010-03-01T20:31:00.002+08:00

People have been asking me when is mine.
To be frank, I do wish that the day is right here today. I'm really looking forward to that day whereby I could just leap higher. I didn't want to be that frog staying in the well, stuck there forever. What most important is, I want to keep more for my certificates.

I wouldn't want to slog like a bitch for something I don't find it worth doing so. This is unhealthy. So so unhealthy, but what could I do? What done is done, and what should be done is not done.

I really want to let things out but again, this isn't the right channel for me in doing so. This explains why I have been blogging lesser and lesser as months passes because I feel uncomfortable.

Anyway, I loved being love, I enjoy being dote upon, I like no nagging, I adore no violent and most important, I want your attentiveness. Nope I'm not in love, but I'm behaving like one. That's pretty much contradicting, nonetheless, The former sentences still hold.

D! I miss stingrays, I miss lalas, I miss, miss, miss and miss.
As of now, I'm craving for avocado juice and I'm craving for your attentiveness!

To SH: I dont know if you're reading this, or if you ever know this web of mine, I want to let you know that I'm struggling/surviving everyday because of you. This is so wrong but at least I'm trying to get over it....

I admit I'm easily pissed when things don't go my way, especially when it comes to attentiveness, but I'm not that monster flaring up anymore.

I lead my life with devil may care attitude.
I don't hold grudges.
I take things easily.
And I enjoys making other laugh and smile.

I want to my make my life better.

Please...

Cheers
Shuang

Oh, I don't know leh!

2010-01-23T08:59:00.004+08:00

Hi Peeps,

I'm gonna blog again. :)

People who have known me for years, would have know that I ain't someone whom easily turn down/away someone/things and or requests. Or rather, I'm kinda an easy person when it comes to certain/simple things. I don't ask for more and I would try to solve everything within my own abilities.

With these attributes, it can be both good and bad. Let's not mention about those that I've did it willingly, but those that I have no choice but to put up with.

I have this friend, oh wait I would rather not classify he/she as my friend so lets just term he/she as XYZ, someone who comes and goes. She is some who loves pushing things around, and "I don't know!" is her favorite phrase or maybe is her pet phrase right from the beginning.

I'm going to start the story with:
"I DON'T KNOW!"

"I don't know this, I don't know that!" and this manages to get her off some shit. I'm appalled at this powerful phrase that my top often believes in it.

Anyway just yesterday, she had passed me some stuff to do, or rather, she had asked if I've did it before. I've answered no, likewise, she had answered no too. OK FINE! Since she didn't do it before, I don't mind adding some stuff to my piles. I mind, just one won't kill so why not? As per normal, I've rushed through mine including that piece which she had claimed that she don't know.

Once everything's done, I've 'broadcast' my work, with the other party called and asked how come there's a difference. It was then, I was told that XYZ had did this stuff JUST LAST WEEK! Don't tell me that you can't even remember what you've did last week? OK OK! I admit that I will and might forget things that happened just yesterday, but the fact that she is just so good at feigning seriously put me off, because this is not once, but twice, thrice, forth and so for..

I seriously feel like screwing her off, but what could I do?
All I could was to pass her that stuff and said: "You said you didn't do it, but the other party called and said you did!".

And again, I'm being brushed off with. "Is it? I don't know leh. Let me check.".
How to clique well you tell me!

Whatever it is, I'm just looking forward to CNY and you guys know why!

KEKE!

Cheers
Shuang

The mind goes wild.

2010-01-17T11:54:00.002+08:00

Hi People,

It is never a good thing to forget, or rather it is a very difficult task to do so..I think its time for me to let go, for me to give up!

I don't want to cause myself agony against sometime that would never be. Because, it will never be. Perhaps, more of it might help me in letting go! Hence, please give me more. I really wish to let go.

I've survived these period by telling myself, well, maybe it's no longer any more, hence there might be opportunity for me?! I've been telling myself, oh...maybe time changes because I could some how rather sense it?! The hard truth is, none of the above is true and I hate knowing that I've been lying to myself.

You maybe be good/great/superb, but it's too late!

I didn't lead a good days previous week, of which, CWC knows why because I've told him.

My life is really mundane so much so that I'm looking for a change in it! I really hate driving nowadays! Either drive me out or I'm gonna slack at home, not moving my butt.

I want to be the happy-go-lucky person I used to be!

Behind every smile, it actually hides numerous stuff trying to cover them up properly.

Imma no longer one...

I don't know why I sound so emo, but one thing for sure I'm not 失恋 because I'm not interested in one in the first place, or rather, I ain't involve in one.

Just let your mind go wild once a while ok?
I won't elaborate much.

Cheers
Shuang

Let me VENT!

2010-01-14T09:58:00.001+08:00

I understand that no matter how much you’ve tried, you’ll still fail in the end. So much so that I really don’t know what to do next and I feel like escaping. I know it’s a cowardly action to escape but I just wish to hide, even for an hour.

It’s really hurt, especially from one!
I’ve thought that things are great and turning better. I’ve learnt to blend in more frequently. However, I was told that I’m wrong. I shouldn’t have responded in the first place, and I shouldn’t have asked likewise.

Haha. How ironically?!
I just feel that I’m a shallow river with all my small fishes swimming into the big sea, abandon me aside. No matter how much I’ve tried, how much effort I’ve put in, I still a shit. It’s really demoralizing.
All voice down to pride.
o.O

You might have thought that I’m enjoying every shit, but to be honest, I’m not! Fine, maybe some! I feel bad when the other party do shit and get more. I feel lousy when the other party did something lousy with no one knowing, but not for me.

I don’t blog, but whenever I do, it’s a channel for me to share upon, screamed or pissed at.

Ultimately, we should’ve just remained unchanged, not thinking of changing for the good.
After all, it’s all my wishful thinking.

Euu…I really don’t know what’s happening, all I know was I’m feeling lousy today.
I’m sorry for all the venting, but do let me vent occasionally please. It at least helps a bit.

So now, after venting, CHEER UP!
:)

P/S: Why always other but not you?

P/S/S: Why do I always found myself stuck in this predicament? I know it’s wrong, yet I still fall into. WHY!

P/S/S/S: I’m waiting for it to RING….. -____-“

P/S/S/S/S: I’m tired….

Cheers
Shuang

New Year Resolution

2009-12-31T07:55:00.003+08:00

It's pretty much a norm to see every blogger blogged on/about their new year resolution. So yes I am, blogging mine.

First and foremost, I'm gonna share the summary of my 2009 as usual.

I've celebrated my previous birthday with tons and tons of people, totaled up to more than a hundreds. Thanks my dears!

I've graduated and found myself a pretty decent job. Well, I have yet to find my passion though, nonetheless, everything is rather fine here except certain things. Am waiting for CNY though. :)

I've sort of shifted to Granny's place, which I knew not many people knows why and why, for late wakey hours.

Fifth Grand Uncle's Birthday Dinner

I've visited a couple of places/went for vacations (in)/precious moments which includes:

don't know how many times.

Drove more than 300 hundred times, both manual and auto.

Then, I guess I should forgo the unhappy part, as well as those not worth mentioning upon, like those who comes and go you know.. :)

So yes people. Here come my resolution...

Start my PT soon.
Get out of comfort zone and look for better opportunities.
Increase my monetary incomes.
Waltzing
Go Bangkok again.
Visit Hong Kong / Taiwan / Korea / Zhu Hai / Manchester if possible. (Either one will do!)
Commit myself when the hosting is up.
Stop being so lazy! (Seems like every year I'll get to key this in)
Take leave if possible to join family when they go for vacations. (I've simply missed out too many this year because of leave issues. SAD! I don't wanna be home alone again!)

So yes.
That's all for my resolution.
Will add in if there is more, but I doubt I'll do so...

P/S: I would like to thanks those whom play a part in my 2009 be it good or bad. Thanks for being there whenever I needed help and I'm sorry if I've offended anyone in one way or another. You guys shared at least few GB each in my brain and yes. I'll remember you guys be it 10 years down the road.

People like:

Granny
Dad
Mum
Skinny Day
Brother Tan
Athen Tan
Bitch
Aunt EL
Aunt K
Aunt J
ALL MY GU GUssss
CWC
Mr Q
Mr Z
Mr J
Mr KG aka Mr A
Miss LHH
Ah Tan
Song
Fraternity (you know who you are.)
Mr D

:)
Thanks people!!!!!!!!

Cheers
Shuang

What's Christmas?

2009-12-26T10:34:00.005+08:00

I'm trying to blog more often whenever possible, so that my dear friend MR KG aka Mr A would know what's going on around/about me of late.

:)
You got to seriously thank me, I tell you!
It's really a tedious stuff to do when you're literally going to be drawn away from blogger almost everyday..Like I've said earlier on, not that I didn't want to update, but I just don't have the time and mood to settle for a decent one.

I would still take tons of pictures, wanting to blog about them. Cousins can be my witness! However, when days and weeks passes, and that I have yet transfer the photos. This delay the updates and eventually I've totally ignore/give up/forget the post.

HAHA!
Thanks.

Anyway, seems like my venting works. Of course, I know it's purely coincidence! No half day given, instead we were let off early at 3pm going 4pm. That's pretty good enough though. I wouldn't ask for more. At least they bother to give.

Merry Christmas!

Was so freaking tired that I've literally knocked out upon reaching home at 4pm plus. I have been sleeping less than 5 hours lately and it feels so great having to nap whenever possible. Still, am still very tired...

Nevertheless, knowing that I have gathering at aunt's place is always the drives to wake me up and get prepared.

Of everything, I do really loves bonding/gathering. Pictures were taken and I have yet uploaded them either. Luckily it's 26th today and I ain't lazy to blog. Otherwise, you got to wait till I've uploaded the pictures and I'll blog, which tells me that I might ignore/give up/forget it. :D

Then, to Mr KG! I've received your post card! THANKS! I'm thinking of puncturing a hole at the coin and make it into a necklace. Can I can I?!
We shall see then ok! :D

New year is coming!
Where's my resolution?!
:D

Cheers
Shuang

What a Xmas Eve?!

2009-12-24T09:23:00.003+08:00

It's really disheartening learning that most of them is having half day work on Xmas Eve except me. Great expectation seriously brings great disappointment. I've always thought that since we aren't going any where this year, we will/might be having holiday then.

I mean, why not?

If we were all out of town, wouldn't it be a closure?
Couldn't this just be an incentive to us since we aren't getting any this year?

You guys mentioned that we will have one when year end comes, but it turned out otherwise. In return, we get shit. Literally shit.

Alright!
I shouldn't compare this year with last year, but it's a human instinct to compare which we can't deny! Am I right?

They have been comparing, so why can't we?

Anyway, days haven't been good lately.
My deepest condolence to my dear friend.
I know you will be strong and I promise I'll be there for you whenever you needed help. I know I myself couldn't do much, but still I wish I could help in whatever ways I can.

P/S: Opportunities are always up there for grab, it's really up to me to take up or not. I'm really puzzled why I'm still stuck here. What am I waiting for? Literally what?! WHAT THE FUCK!

P/S/S: To leave or not.

The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..
The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..
The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..
The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..
The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..

Cheers
Shuang

I've blogged!

2009-12-23T10:32:00.003+08:00

Before I knew it, Mr KG is complaining that my blog is getting boring day by day, and that my working life isn't as lively and exciting as my schooling life.

First and foremost, yes! I do agree with him. Working life is never lively and exciting until you really find one that you like and have passion for. Secondly, I got to blog discretely because I ain't know who's reading behind the screen, especially I'm drawing salary of my own now. Thirdly, I do have time constraint whereby I couldn't get myself settle down for a decent post. I would be tired when 6pm comes, and I wouldn't want to face this electronic hardware again after staring/using it for long hours.

I do have lots of stuff to blog upon, especially my recent trip to BKK. It was a fun and exciting trip whereby we had lead a carefree life, abandoning all work aside and live a life like some prince and princesses. We had given them so much tips that they seriously love us and pamper us with great services. We had cab so often that I've stopped whining when I'm stuck in Singapore's traffic. Then, we had shopped so much that it seriously gave me numerous body aches and we finally surrendered on the last day. I could see myself dragging from stores to stores patronizing them. What for torture ourselves which seriously ponders me. :)

Still, we've gave up our last day of shopping and back to Hotel for Rest and Relaxation. Took the ferry across the river to our Hotel. Rested, unpacked our reaping and off we went for 'breeze' walking around our hotel vicinity. I didn't know that they do sell mango sticky rice outside my hotel until the last day. !!!!! If I knew earlier, the vendor would love me so much because I'll patronize her stall everyday giving her business. Yes. If only! As of now? I do seriously nice their Mango Sticky Rice! Why is it so nice?! Dang!

Next, we've spent 2000 Bahts on our last night of party!
Party of 4 by the way.

Absolute Vodka
Drinks
Red Bull
Pork Chop's favorite - Chocolates
My favourite - Mango Sticky Rice
In house dining

and more!

People has been saying that Hotel's staff hates in house dining especially at night because this means that they need to work.

But who say so?
The guy who had served us was more than willing to knock on our rooms as many times as possible because he'll get tips whenever he knocks, amounting to as many as 100 Bahts! Yes. They do love us!

To be frank. I seriously loves holiday. Like who wouldn't?
I don't get to vex on stuff in Singapore and I lead a carefree life, spending on whatever I could and do whatever I want.

Yes. That's the life I'm looking for.
A Devil May Care life who simply live because of herself but not others.

This might be selfish to term as it is, because others might think that she only cares for herself. If you know me well, you'll know. To add on, why would others choose to live the life of what others want? I ain't want to be a puppet. :)

The easiest way to lose something is to want it too much..

Cheers
Shuang

What is all this about?

2009-11-30T22:29:00.004+08:00

I live with the thought of every smiles I've sent out would literally brighten up his/her day. I maybe right, that is why I'm doing so now and then, everyday.

I've practically smiled to everyone, greeted everyone and talked to everyone.

I admit that I'm one of the culprit who did a filter to the list of who I should and should not. Yes I did. I just lead a life of which I feels good about and I feel comfortable with. I didn't want to be a hypocrite smiling at one in order to curry favor them, or to level up my profile.

Anyway, who would do likewise just to brighten up my day?

You?
She?
He?
Them?

I've this practise of dialing my home number whenever I ain't good. Reason being? I know baby would pick up the phone and I could talk to him. He can sometimes cheer one up and he's really good at it. Ignore the fact that he could piss someone off very easily too.

Much as it is.
We shall just end everything and everything....

Thanks eh.

Cheers
Shuang

I hate November..

2009-11-24T21:13:00.006+08:00

SMS from CWC, apparently forward to all in my clique.....
Good afternoon to all, our dear asslyn have been very lucky to be our 1st person to tio h1n1. so pls send ur regard to her. Btw not to care about her but to laugh at her. Hahahaha! =x n also i will be out of town from wed to maybe fri. Going kl, so need anything, give me a sms. Thanks.

Please note that I've copied words for words. No changes or adding words to it. I swear upon the stars!

I thought I've no more lousy luck for the month of Nov, but I think I'm wrong! Yes CWC! You may laugh out loud!!

I've dated him for Loyang Tua Pek Gong since the first week of November. Of which, I have been dragging myself there literally till today. And now it's going to be end of November in less than a week. Maybe I shouldn't delay my trip there, like what CWC had said......"you will still gonna be sway if you still not going there!"

So yes. Turned up for work today amidst the lost of voice; and again, I'm on MC! I know it's like wtf! How come I have been seeing her taking MC now and then. But please! I wanted to take my personal leave to cover my sick leave. Apparently, I'm only left with 1 day which is not enough for the 2 days given. So must as well take sick leave? Anyway, not that I've cleared off my personal leave by the way, it's just that mine are those work as you earned leave, in short - pro-rated leave.

I'm down with bad sore throat, nose blocked since last Thursday and slight fever started yesterday. Phlegm turned with transparent watery to thick green yellowish. Drank the cough syrup hoping to sleep throughout the night. Nevertheless, still wake/sat up in the middle of the night trying to cough, in need of clearing my throat.

Nope. I'm not a H1N1 victim, in fact, suspected case only. Which I doubt I will in the first place though...No one around my vicinity are down with H1N1..

Yes. I know what's going on (as if I really knew!). Went swimming on Friday amidst the nose block and slight sore throat. Asked Granny beforehand and she said..

Note: Translated version..

Me:

Granny:

Me:

Granny:

Me:

Granny:

I do have a funny Granny, ain't I?

So yes. The former didn't come true instead of the latter...

To be continued because Skinny Dad is gonna to take joss stick if I'm still not out for dinner...

Cheers
Shuang

Finally

2009-11-10T23:45:00.006+08:00

Hi peeps,

Somethings cooking within myself that I've actually went for my swim at BBK CSC Club! It's something that I'm happy about, and something that I'm proud about. Reason being? I've managed to drag myself into the pool and swam for 10 laps (1 lap = through and fro) for 40 minutes non stop! Shouldn't I be happy about? At least I've started!! So yes. How many calories have I burnt? HAHA! Kidding!

I'm gonna swim again tomorrow.
Anyone interested?

Meeting ends at 6.20pm with us leaving the office at 6:40pm! Reached home at 7pm and I were still hesitating should I go for my swim or not. I'm tired, literally tired that I've practically fell asleep during lunch time! Amidst all the tiredness, I've changed into my swim wear and drove to the CSC club! Parked the car diagonally across (as I've said), and I've swam like nobody business in the pool. :)

Thanks.
Thanks that I didn't let the evil conquer my determination of not going to swim!
Thanks that no matter how tired I am, I've insisted on covering 10 laps.

And yes people, during the journey of conquering 10 laps, I wanted to stop or take a halt many times. Be it 2 laps later, 5 laps later or 7 laps later. If I've gave up without covering 10 laps. I know I would regret just for the sake of the 10 minutes of rest.

Our life works exactly the same.
We decide our life and how we should go about it. If we were to give up during the route to success because of minor difficulties, we will regret; definitely regret! No matter what had happened, I believe that everything can be solve! Ultimately, today's problem would become nothing when tomorrow comes, or maybe weeks later. So why give up when that problem is gonna be a nothing? Wouldn't all our effort be wasted after having conquering 6 laps already? What we need are merely that 4 laps left!

Aww.
Just my 88 dollars' worth.
-_____-"
HAHA

Cheers
Shuang

What is L-O-V-E?

2009-11-08T15:52:00.003+08:00

Neither would I know that I'm actually here, giving advices to my dear friend with regards to relationship.

I just had mine few weeks ago and here I'm face with my dear friend's. I know I'm in no position to advice him, neither am I in the position to tell him what to do.

I know, I know, I KNOW!
I know this isn't a period to talk sense and this isn't the time to get him to listen. I mean, who will when he/she is undergoing all this ~~shitandnonsense~~?

Anyway, come to think of it, mine is really nothing as compared to his. Really. I felt really stupid having going through what I've went through, and I'm really grateful to whoever rendered his/her help during my downtime. Hence, I feel all the more I should help, to help him in whatever ways I could. Because, because I don't want anyone to feel lousy-bad-heartaches for someone whom isn't worth for it, not a single bit.

I had someone with me during my downtime (you know who you are), and I wish to be there for anyone who needs it when he/she is undergoing his/her downtime. My dear friend, I wish I could help in any ways I could or any thing that you need. Be it being there by your side, keeping quiet. I know you just need accompanying, irregardless of what we were doing or what. Maybe you wouldn't. However, at least it helps than being alone.

There's a million of memories and thoughts for him to feel heartaches, but there's no single word to describe the heartaches.
Yes. I truly understand.

Love is blind, and loves hurt. That's why I'm pulling back whenever I can. Label me as coward if you want. It's better to be coward than going through shits.

Haha!

OK LAH!
I'm lousy ok!
To Mr C: haha!
To Miss SC: I'm strong!
To Miss H: Open eyes big big BIG!

Cheers
Shuang

Be careful people!

2009-11-01T19:32:00.004+08:00

Hi All,

After a series of episode, I've grew stronger with stronger antibiotics. Anyway, I don't think he/she will be reading this, since none of them would have the time doing so, but happily reminisce together.

Well, as per according to them, I'm being labeled as 'unappreciative'.
Am I? I mean, in what way am I being unappreciative?
I did sincerely thank you for everything you've did in the past, and I thought you've accepted my Thank You-ness, instead of accepting you in person..

Doesn't accept you in person equates to unappreciative?
Is that what you're trying to say/mean in another word?

I mean, I'm not someone who takes relationship too easily. If I were to accept you for whatever things that you've did out of your irrational thinking, especially during courtship, I would be nothing but a stupid and materialistic woman!

Come on. I need some neutral opinions and comments here.
Please judge for yourself to see if I'm being unappreciative over here or I'm being overboard?

He had once:

Woke up early just to buy beancurd and soy milk for me, before making his way down and pick me up for work.. OK! He stays relatively closer to the East and Central area.
Bought me ice creams out of the sudden in between working hours. Or rather, he would popped by my office suddenly, rang my phone and asked me to go out to collect them. I didn't request for a single one out of the so-many-times....
Picked me up from work even at the expense of waiting outside the office for 10? 20? 30 minutes?
Driving me to Island Creamery, Daily Scope, Bakerzin and any where any places.......
Offered to drive cousin/sister home when we were around their workplaces.
Told me how much he needs me (BULL SHIT!)
And there might be more to list down, but that's all I could think of currently. Maybe you would like to fill me up with those unlisted ones?

So basically, that's what he had did during the courtship. I mean, come on? Who wouldn't when he/she wants you?

I did thank him for all the effort he've made, and at the same time, I did explain why I couldn't commit so fast, so easily..... Because, because of whatever reason, be it I'm still not over it or whatsoever!

So yup. And HAHA!
Eventually, when am too stubborned being a Taurus oriented person, he had gave up!
I'm lucky ain't I?
Luckily that I didn't commit, otherwise I'll be hurt like hell.
I mean, when someone take such things so easily, things wouldn't work well eventually. It's always better to know it than it is too late! Agree?

The society doesn't accept job hoppers, neither do I accept someone who hops around like Do-Re-Me!

People has been telling me that such person doesn't worth much for me to feel a single heart-aches or what. People has been cheering me up recently. People has been taking senses to me laterly. Mr C has been bringing me out and checking on me the past few days. Miss H has been inducing social techniques in me of late, and it often ends up in regrets and laughters. HAHA! Aunt has been asking me to open eyes big big. Granny has been telling me to ignore and ignore. Miss LHH has being laying thoughts into words for me. Tan had told me there's more trees out there.

AND YES PEOPLE!
I THANK YOU FOR ALL THE EFFORT MADE AND ALL THE CARE AND CONCERN BEING SHOWERED!

Coming to end, am I being unappreciative just because I didn't accept him?

I NEED AN ANSWER TO THIS BECAUSE I FEEL THAT I'M BEING ACCUSED!
:(

Cheers
Shuang

Of cheerful smiles

2009-10-28T09:12:00.001+08:00

O.o

I hate the fact that none of them know the truth and that they were being lead to believe the otherwise. I mean, come on? For goodness sake, please open the god damn mouth of yours and at least let them know the updates.

I didn't want to be the evil one, giving the thoughts that I'm leading a stray.

Nonetheless, I've MOF ice cream yesterday!
I didn't know that there's MOF in Lot 1 please! God damn it. I do admit that I did pass by the restaurant a number of times, but it just didn’t catch my attention/glimpse. I’ve foresee I’ll patronize them again in the near future. :)

Then, I had a long chat with Granny again. I love the way she sees things. It’s marvelous and great. She really has got many to share. From what is right and what is wrong, to what should be done and what should not.

I’m really fortunate to have them around me.
A loving Granny.
A caring Mummy and Daddy. (Granny told me that mum had actually asked something out from her about me.)
A super good Skinny Dad and Aunt.
A bunch of funny cousins.
An exciting clique.
And last of all, a part time boyfriend and a full time friend.

I THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO MY SMILES AGAIN!

Especially Granny and my part time boyfriend and a full time friend.

:)

P/S: They finally said that I need to take my medicine again, early this morning. This is a good sign ok? At least I’m being myself again. Keke.

Cheers
Shuang

It's not OSIM today!

2009-10-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

I did have a great day today, despite the agony I had last night.

Oh by the way, I'm ok. And thanks to you that I've become stronger, I am!!
You've made me fell into the trap and you've abandoned me aside, walking away.
How can I not be strong?
I should have know that you weren't even serious right from the beginning, not even a tiny weeny bit..

:)

Well, I admit that I'm a weakling at the starts, but everyone grows and I've grew.

Thanks to Mr C that my day was at least better.
I might be and is crazy that I've changed my sleep wear, and out driving on the road at 2am last night! Yes! Literally 2am, when I'm suppose to work the next day.

Then, I've tried GS300's cruising mode, and I've sprint off too, winning a mod..

-_________________-"

Hi Aunts and Uncles and lovely friends. Please don't scold me.
Just once in a blue moon please.

I really don't know what's got into me when I'm cruising at 160..
o.O
I've broke my record of 140 at 200+.

Anyway, apart from Mr C, I thank both Miss H and Miss SC for waking me up.....scolding me......

I have the urge of uploading all the messages because I find it meaningful and make senses.

As for today, things run smoothly and as per normal.
I've turned up despite the fact that I'm thinking of backing out initially. I think I've did a great job and am earning myself a higher status.

Granny wanted me to go forward with it, but I'm still deciding and procrastinating. Maybe I should? But I don't think I can be trapped you see.
Aww....

Anyway I think I'm more into AMK's.
We shall wait and see eh?

I know I'll get it for today's, and its a matter of fact that should I accept it or not. Yes. It does fetch a higher one, but even Ah Tan also said that he wouldn't encourage me to that, but he will definitely be if its others.

So now, I'm procrastinating. Ah! Whatever it is, just let me simply wait for my phone to rings in days to come. :)

Then, I thank Q for sending me home today. :D keke.

Cheers
Shuang

PERFECTION AND HAPPINESS.

2009-10-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

If we’re unhappy, it’s because life is not as we want it. Life is not
matching our expectations of how it “ought” to be and so we’re happy.

So we say, “I’ll be happy when…” well, life is NOT perfect. Life is about
being exhilarated, frustrated sometimes achieving and sometimes missing out.
So long as we say “I’ll be happy when…”, we’re deluding ourselves.

Happiness is a decision. Many people live life as if someday they’ll arrive
at “happiness” like one arrives at a bus stop. They figure that someday
everything will fall into place, they will take a deep breath and say, “Here
I am at last…happy!” Hence their life story is one of “I’ll be happy when…”

Each one of us has a decision to make. Are we prepared to daily remind
ourselves that we have only limited time to make the most of what we’ve got,
or will we while away the present, hoping for a better future?

The following was written by an eighty-five-year old man who learned he was
dying. It is particularly relevant.

“If I had my life to live over again, I’d try to make more mistakes next
time. I wouldn’t be so perfect. I would relax more. I’d limber up. I’d be
sillier that I’ve been on this trip. In fact, I know very few things that I
would take so seriously. I’d be crazier. I’d be less hygienic”

“I’d take more chances, I’d take more trips, I’d climb more mountains, I’d
swim more rivers, and I’d go more places I’ve never been to. I’d eat more
ice cream and fewer beans.”

“I’d have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones!”

“You see, I was one of those people who lived prophylactically and sensibly
and sanely hour after hour and day after day. Oh, I’ve had my moments, and
if I had it to do over again, I’d have more of those moments – moment by
moment by moment.

“I’ve been one of those people who never went anywhere without a
thermometer, a hot water bottle, a gargle, a raincoat and a parachute. If I
had to do all over again, I’d travel lighter next time.”

“If I had to do it all over again, I’d start barefoot earlier in the spring
and stay way later in the fall. I’d ride more merry-go-rounds, I’d watch
more sunrises, and I’d play with more children, if I had my life to live
over again.”

“But you see, I don’t.”

Isn’t this recount a beautiful reminder? We only have so long on this
planet. Lets make the most of it. The old man realized that, in order to be
happier, in order to get more out of life, he didn’t have to go and change
the world. The world is already beautiful. He had to change himself.

The world is not “perfect”. The degree of our unhappiness is the distance
between the way things are and the way they “ought” to be. If we cease to
demand that things be perfect, the business of being happy becomes easier.
We then choose to have preferences for the way things might be, and decide
that if our preferences are not met, we will be happy anyway.

As the Indian guru once told a pupil who was in desperate search of
contentment, “I’ll give you the secret. If you want to be happy, BE HAPPY!”

CHEERS!
Shuang

2009-10-24T13:02:00.002+08:00

Skinny brought these and he claims that they are for me to gobble them down.
-______________________-"

But honestly speaking, this is a piece of good news to hear when I've just woke up.
haha.

Follow that, I had McDonald for breakfast.
Anyone has Sentosa Cove?
Please give me...like you will..

Cheers
Shuang

I still have them. :)

2009-10-24T11:36:00.007+08:00

After learning my pathetic plight, we've went out..
Ok fine!
I'm not literally that pathetic though, just unfortunate.....

Wanted to drive the Lexus, but I'm just kinda too tired to navigate.
Hence, I've ended up sitting throughout the journey, watching trees passing by.
Certain landmarks brought up certain things and certain things brought up certain landmarks.
-_______________-"
Ok lah.
BULL SHIT!
EVERYTHING IS JUST A PILE OF SHIT....

Pictures shall do the talking because Imma lazy to describe......

Picked me up before going for Nasi Lemak.

So yes. Boon Lay Power Nasi Lemak.
This is often our supper when we were out at night.....
Everytime long queue even it's ERP carpark....

Anyway, I'm not that stupid to turn to alcohol though.....
These were the left over from the previous patrons.

Done with supper and off we went for Cathay.
Cathay has been my favourite cinema and it will always be.
I won't compromise in the future....
Haha.

The $80 handphone!

Watched "Love Happens" and well, watched it yourself! :)

Anyway, amidst waiting for the screening time, we had walked to Selegie wanting to have Rochor Beancurd. But when we were just about to cross the road, droplets of rain started to fall twice as fast as previously. In the end, we had choosen to detour fearing that heavy rains would come....

There goes my another favourite, Rochor Beancurd. :(

Why like that.....?!

Cheers
Shuang

Failure

2009-10-23T06:01:00.000+08:00

Imma such a failure.
I know this day would come yet I still fell into the trap.

I shouldn't let it intrude right from the beginning knowing that it will only make me disappointed but more determine and stronger for next/future.

Anyway, I have kept waking up in the middle of the night, having difficulties entering my dreamlands again. Any remedies out there?

Granny offered me Tiger last night hours after I've taken my would-caused-drowsiness medicine, it did at least help a bit but I still woke up at 5:30. o.O

Haha!
What's going on? Seems like everyone is the same.

Like what tutors have always said, it's always easier in first test, second/retest is always the difficult ones.

Cheers
Shuang

2009-10-22T08:59:00.003+08:00

"I may be walking away, but the whole time I was praying you’d hold me back. You’d grab my wrist and yell in my face why I need you and how much you love me. I wanted you to fight for me. But we both gave up I suppose." -anonymous

BAKERZIN

2009-10-17T20:05:00.003+08:00

Vanilla Creme Brulee

Raspberry Panna Cotta

Warm Chocolate Cake

These are delicious.........
:)

Cheers
Shuang

Sunday Breakfast in JP, 4 Oct

2009-10-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

Ding Tai Fung for breakfast.
-______________-"

We wanted to go Jurong Bird Park for Dim Sum in Ah Yat, however, it only starts operating at 11am when we were already in the cr at 9:45am. :D

We to 记得吃 after our heavy breakfast and I had durian early in the morning.
-___________-"

Done with 记得吃, followed by yoghurt + ice cream.
-____________________________-"

I've really ate a lot for the breakfast alone!

Oh ya. That was the day where we had met the typical unfriendly Singapore sale girl/auntie!

Cheers
Shuang

The 10K

2009-10-11T12:13:00.005+08:00

This is the 10K which I wanted to 'borrow' from Skinny Dad to show the ignorant sales girl in Jurong Point!

Anyway, we had went to Jurong Point last Sunday for breakfast.

Walked into a retail store with an ignorant sales girl unwillingly to serve Skinny Dad when he's in.

Skinny Dad:

Sales Auntie:

looking somewhere else

Skinny Dad:

Sales Auntie:

BO CHAP

Skinny Dad:

Sales Auntie:

Still bo chap and not willing to serve

Me:

Skinny Dad:

Grumble a little and we left

While walking to have our dessert.

Skinny Dad:

Me:

Skinny Dad:

Me:

This is the shiokness please!
But Skinny Dad don't want! Because, he said.

Skinny Dad:

Us:

:D

I seriously don't understand the theory behind Singapore Sales Service.

Terribly falls behind Taiwan!

RARRRRRRRRR

Cheers
Shuang